When you try to understand the heart through the mind you will get lost or stuck in the translation. There are no words that exist to describe what the heart feels nor should it be an attempt.
Paradox, as defined by Dictionary.com, is a seemingly absurd or self-contradictory statement that when investigated or explained is proves to be well founded or true. You are are living a paradox within a paradox within a paradox. You are the Paradox and its Truth.
Nothing is ever kept from you unless you believe you are unworthy of it or you cannot have it.
Change is not something you do, it is who you are. You are never not changing. Cells are splitting and dividing, your heart is beating, you are aware of more information than 10 minutes ago.